Embattled actor Alec Baldwin says he’s quitting public life for good in a new essay titled, I Give Up.
Within the nearly 5,300-word shpiel – published on New York Magazine’s Vulture blog on Feb. 24 – the 55-year-old actor describes his hatred for the media and his plans to move to California following a difficult year in the public eye.
"I loathe and despise the media in a way I did not think possible," Alec says, as told to journalist Joe Hagan. "This is the last time I'm going to talk about my personal life in an American publication ever again."
The 30 Rock star recounts how he grappled with accusations of homophobia in the past (particularly following an incident in November, in which he reportedly yelled an anti-gay slur at a paparazzo), while slamming notable members of the press, including TMZ’s founder Harvey Levin and openly gay CNN anchor Anderson Cooper.
"I find myself bitter, defensive, and more misanthropic than I care to admit. And I'm trying to understand what happened, how an altercation on the street, in which I was accused — wrongly — of using a gay slur, could have cascaded like this," he wrote. "There's been a shift in my life. And it's caused me to step back and say, 'This is happening for a reason.'"
After admitting he regrets some of his angry public outbursts, many of which made headlines last year, the actor finally emphasizes his desire to focus on his family and relocate them to Los Angeles, explaining: “I've lived this for 30 years, I'm done with it."
"Now I don't want to be Mr. Show Business anymore. I want the same thing everybody else wants. I want a happy home, and for the first time in my adult life, I have one," wrote the father-of-two.
"I love my wife more than anything in the world and I love my child [six-month-old Carmen, with wife Hilaria, 29] more than anything else in the world and I don't want that to change in any way."
Read Alec's full I Give Up essay here.